you

today you've realize something about yourself. which is what you'd always say to yourself. yet, today is different.today are the things that happened from the start,from the day you were born. since that day many things happened many weird things happened towards you. yet you still can't figure it out. you're so confused with yourself. you can't sleep.you're tired..what should you do? what should you do?

feel

i feel like stabbing myself with a knife. oh man! i hate this feeling. the feeling like one of those japanese cartoon where their soul flew out from their body but not fully.just hanging above their head. who am i to you exactly? i still wonder.. why do you need to do those thing?smoking?what do you want for your life actually?do you still need me?or am i just your part time lover? someone who give you love whenever you feel like having?
aiman i'm tired..please.i'm tired...can you help me please? sakit hati dan dada..