like we used to be

transformer

its been quite a while now i didnt write anthing. i guess i should start now and start fresh. before this i used this blog to express my sadness, things that had happened between you and me. but we're 21 now. and we have a lot of things to think beside our love desire. i guess love have make me think deep. deeper than i used to think. its about being mature and independent. i'll pray to Allah every single day.. hoping that HE give us taufik & hidayah and iman. Of all the challenges that we're having im hoping that Allah will bestow us patience and mercy.  what ive learn is that there's a limit in love. i've gone through your tumblr just now. and i realise there were hints about you getting tired of us. but i guess i never give up. until recently you realise that you have wasted your teenage life with crappy love. its ok aiman. i guess this is your time.. and i should respect that.. All guys i mean all mens are like that.. they're not ready for commitment. i guess i should think that way too..since there's many things to do in life.. aiman i know i've done so many bad things towards you. i've hurt your feeling.i have broke your trust.. and etc. im sorry for that. i really am sorry. and i can assure you i am changing to be better me and better muslimah.but i guess thats not enough rite sayang.. Ya Allah.. help me. i dont know how to explain what im feeling right now. im confused. but i know you always be there for me Allah.. and im glad that you help me to think wise. and not to feel grieved for losing u aiman. i love you.. just one last thing , after this if you ever feel angry please go and take a wuduk. insyaallah Allah will calm you down. i trust you aiman and i believe you..there's a good side of you. you just have to believe it. i know you can aiman. my love for you will never end. as i always pray for you to be my khalifah.. the husband and the father of our children. amin. insyaallah. and i never regret having you being part of my life over these years.


i love you AIMAN FIRDAUS and always will..