thank you

dear aiman,thank you for the cake.and its mango delight that is you.thank you.i didn't eat that cake yet.cause i thought we can eat it together while looking at your new mac book pro.but turns out you're sick and couldn't make it.i'm worried, is it me or just my silly feelings.you changed.you do need me,do you? i hope i can see you and tell you stories,bored one i think.nevermind.

already implanted in my heart

dear sayang, i know by the time you read this you just got back from sjmc. but i want you to know that i love you and do take care of yourself. i'm disappointed for not being there with you. However, please and please do call me if you feel bored or anything.I'm here sayang. don't worry everything going to be fine! insyaallah.. :)  saya doakan yang terbaik! nothing serious right syg? so what should i do for this next 2 days if its 2 la kan.what if 3 or 4?? Omgush!! i'll suffer toooo! i'm going to miss you so so so muuch.and ily!

anyonyo..sleepy ey cha? mwa.

25th may 2011(my baby goin for operation)

pahang oh pahang

22nd - 24th April 2011

salam, whats up guys! yaw i'm sorry, this supposed to be last month punya update but i didn't get the chance to upload and update because of certain reasons... one of them is we were in a big fight..yes me and sha. aepy and ayien,aiman and azhar.haha although bad things happened after the trip but for me its worth it.

actually the truth is we didn't plan to go with aepy,we thought on renting a car and share the money with our friends.but it turns out none of them can join us because of certain reasons too.not having enough money,too expensive..hello? 3 days in pahang, one rental car, and petrol gas for RM100? you call that expensive?

ok, anyway back to our trip,here some pictures from my camera. yah i know not that much, most of the picture with aepy..


1st day ,

yah on our way, it was raining heavily

arrived,  nasi sambal tempoyak petai ikan bilis. (1st time yaw)

pak long's house

at night , sambal petai ikan bilis, ikan singgang,ayam,sambal belacan, many more nyumm!!

he found japanese people

2nd day ,

KENDURI KAHWIN ! 

Ok, i don't have the pictures of the wedding cuz this camera were used as video camera.now all i have to do now is learn how to make video. hajimaaaa how la!!

after the wedding we went to this river. i don't remember the name for that place,sorry! but i was fun, and the water is kinda cold. aiman shampoo his hair. haha.. then back to aepy's kampung we eat summore! n n cheese cake. :)

3rd day ,

went back and ikea!

ohmygusshh! meatballs i love u.

hand wax yaw!

bun bun.

bling bling owl.. :) thank u syg!

then we headed back to shah alam...end our journey with shisha and sleep all day.hahaha.....

barely

today wasn't my day.i don't know why i,but i feel like crying.shit! i have to be tough! i wish i can be a dude.not the girl that cry over something stupid and need attention from others.that is stupid and pathetic.please! hello,wake up era!! this is life. just keep it to yourself you pathetic short fat girl. barely breath.what is wrong with me.idiots!see im talking to myself. what a rough day. owh just shup up.

ps: sorry for this post.kinda lost ya know.

little green bug

today we are going to learn about how to kill a bug in the toilet..nott

i just finished taking making shower and washing my clothes. it took me one hour because there's one little green bug (i don't know the specific name for that insect ) but all i know is i killed him already.sorry little fella, i didn't mean too but you scared me off ya know! i was afraid you going to jump at me so instead letting you jumping around the toilet i sprayed the water towards you.but its though..you one though little bug. i spend 20minutes sprayed cold water but nothing happen and i was sweating like mad..then after a while i decided to used hot water.first i pour it on you yet nothing happen then i open the shower,i put it on high temperature and sprayed and yah it works,but i have to spend 15 minutes to kill you. it was tough,yah i know.. and i'm sorry little bug,i really am.... rest in peace you green warrior. i'm sure your family would be so proud of you. heeee :)

ps: i didn't mean to kill him its just one of my reaction towards bugs in the toilet. weird ey?haha..

pps: this is not the bug looks like. don't get me wrong i don't hate them. and i like this cartoon ok!one of my favorite when i was a kid.

Bother

a very good evening to everyone. today i'm going to talk about friendship and myself.i don't know how to start and what should i say first but never mind let's get to the main point.noott!

I realize how different i am from what i was before. yes i have to admit i love making friends..more friends is better..cuz thats how we role in this life. but then i realize something that i should've realize it long before.actually i'm not good in making friends i don't know why but that is me.i try to please everyone,like EVERYONE.maybe thats how i feel towards everybody and that don't mean they feel the same. At least i try ok? yes no matter how i try things will turn out differently and maybe worst..and i don't get it why people have to meddle in my life?i'm not some kind of artist or something!please stop talking about me please i'm begging you guys! i hate my life... i wan't to do something that i like.liking you is the best new thing i've done after recover from a heartbroken.and as usual it won't be a happy ending.this is just great!just great.feel like locking myself again..maybe i should stay away from people.or maybe i have this strong vibe for people to hate me.sometimes i wish my parents would understand my condition...there's something wrong with you era.should i just scratch my face?"yes you should era!people won't bother about you anymore." hahaha that is bullshit.i won't do that i guess?heee kidding! so here's the thing i have to make plans for myself and that plans will begin next semester..i'm going to be different.

yes different, i will change myself.
first start i won't go out often with my classmate, then i try my best to concentrate on my study(yah heard that one before era pfftt) , i will spend most of my money on me, next i will not rely on others. first thing first , going to class by bus ,if i don't get a car.(abah pls,pls!i wan't a car) .. ok next will be emmm ok wait i'm not finish thinking yet.ok this list will continue later.. Next we going to talk about friendship...

Theres's a lot i need to learn about friendship.(well of course relationship is even harder) But one thing that i know for sure is "Please don't be Racist,Sexist,and Discriminate people." we are not perfect! who cares if he's a macha?she's a dork?she's not pretty and fat?. and he's a gay,or she's a lesbian. yes i feel the same too,i don't get it too..what's the point? and what do they get? but whatever, leave that to them?let them answer the Q. i'm sure soon or later they'll change or in the meantime the guilty feeling of wrongdoing will occur to each and everyone of them.hey everybody makes mistakes! it depends on you guys how you wan't your life to be right? so what i'm saying is based on my observation.. we just have to know their heart don't judge by looking at their appearance. i hate when people talk about others behind others back..that is just not right i'll would do the same if i heard someones talked about me.that is not me(i do that because i'm mad) so end up we keep on talking about each other.when will this things stop? never right? so don't start..just keep it to yourself, hey everybody makes mistakes if you think they should change then tell them in a good way.

ya i know this post is kinda boring and you will forget bout this easily..but i don't mind at least i get my point .  i guess? haha till then... wsalam..

fact

is this what you want? i guess yes..thanks for loving me.and i guess this is the end.i want you to know that i love you and i want to win you back but the feeling of scared and afraid if i hurt you again..it kills me when i can't avoid hurting you..thanks for everything..i care so much about you just that i don't know how to show it..and as always i will hurt the person i love the most...great job era!never better...damn it.ok bye...

for you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBVsHiyHGYI

fake?

owh now i know...thanks. hidup anda akan lebih aman selepas ini. saya hanya membawa sial.


saya minta maaf.