one more can?

here's me.with the snow soft hair.weeee :)

sorry syg after what happend earlier today. i'm going to miss you like mad. i don't want to go home with that kind of goodbye.im sad you know? sorry if i hurt you..i love you ya know?please take a good care of yourself and makan la!hajima since when la you don't eat syg? i know you care a lot about me.and i'm thankful for that. don't forget bout me a cha when im in kedah later..haha...see you soon my dear.love you!

hands down

im going to miss this hand la..

Hajimaaa!!! aaaaaaauummm!

Ouch!

Love, Based on Trust not Lust

or

Love, Based on Truth not Lies

sweet

baby you're too sweet , i feel like wanna eat you. aaumm... nyam nyam... :)

what a long day.

today i woke up ,wait wait.. i forgot. "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MAMA & ABAH! LOVE YOU GUYS....

weee...ok continue,, then we headed to my kampung .it's been a while since the last time i went there.gush i miss them so much.and my niece is so cute,he can talk now.i love the way he call me aunty mama.like so cute feel like wanna hug him so tight..but i can't.haha. After that kakak and i went to cs to get a hair cut and yah we did pickd up ilah along the way. yes my new hair is sucks i guess?and shit i ain't got no money left after that girl askd for rm39.wutahell?i didn't ask for that kind of hair cut.i want the normal one. shiting...then mama treat us indian food. weee sedap! "Chenai"... cheese nan summore.

p/s:imy mango delight.mwa.

then ilah's mom called her.their car breakdown nearby fire station .i forgot the exact name for that place.then we went to her house.this is the cool part,after arrived i had to climb on the gate to get into the house cause ilah didn't have the key to open the gate.i thought the gate wasn't that high,dengan penuh confidentnya i jump off the tembok then terduduk.hahaha like pergh that is so gila! i could have broke my leg or something.haha..then we were like mechanic with high confident level, take the battery out from that car.long story cut short..we did help the car to start!jyeah we are heroes. weeeee :)
i'm so proud of myself.haha...

p/s:imy like everytime ya know?mwa. come back faster la cha!

decision

'a conclusion or resolution reached after consideration' based on dictionary.


choose what or which is the best for you.it is your own decision, it is your choice,it is your destiny. 


till then,we'll see.................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING

Hee, Happy Birthday my Mango Delight.. hope ur happy with the surprise(surprise la sangat kan). i wish u all the happiness in this world. i'm happy if ur happy.. i miss you so much, n ily!sayang aiman.

and you did surprised me just now.haha so 0-0 la kan?hahahahahahaha...

sorry i'm speechless. or i'm not use to this thing.hee... sorry if i'm not sweet or something.

take care, wish you all the best,may allah bless u always my dear.. 

:)

15 / 04 / 2011

fucking bullshit..

this is not love.this is bullshit!why her have to suffer.. love is wonderful?that is total crap.rubbish i supposed..fuck! this will end soon.

meatballs

wtf ? feeling useless without having a car. i want you meatball. Like seriously i want u so bad! since 1 or 2 month ago. where can i get a car. please,please let me have you for tomorrow or maybe tomorrow ,tomorrow...

yah great too cool to be true.

fishy

i fucking hate myself right now!

Stairs

I'm going down... this is my turn to go downstairs. or to be exact, every time is my turn. i used to go upstairs but that was just for a while. i'm so glad to have the opportunities to be on the top. i used to be different, my way of thinking were different from the others, that is what abah taught us. and i apply that for myself and i don't like the outcome. maybe i'm too young for that, being perfectionist, fear of failure and etc. that is not normal abah. you , yourself can't even handle it. by the time you turning 40++ you start to realize that thing slowly reduce and the person who help you a lot is mama right? i watch her giving you advice and patient towards all those thing you ever done to her.. i respect her with all my heart and yes she's not a robot she have a heart and feelings too.and sometimes she can't help herself,so by letting all the pressure that you gave to her she will past it to us..i don't mind cause i know what will i feel if i'm in her place.actually i am you and her. this combination is not good for someone like me.. i tried to be nice and i didn't get the same. i'm lost.. i'm not strong enough abah.. i'm sorry... shit haha i'm crying while typing(gila emo) hahaha..again i'm sorry i tried to find myself but i kept on losing track. i should have listen to myself..or i shouldn't? i need someone too abah.you have mama but what about me? the doctor said why don't you refer to your mom and ask her what did she said to your dad that help him becoming what he is now..i've tried but mama will never understand me cause she's tired of listening to these crap. over 25 years she listen to you and now she have to listen to me and of course she won't... she would say arhh that is small matter don't think too much. but for me it is not... what should i do now.i'm sorry cause i'm not your son abah, i disappoint you a lot from the day i was born until now.. there must be something wrong with me.yes it is.. i will change myself again...

today i hit someones car and i have to pay rm125. never gets better.....................................