look out for the star

i went to the window to look for the star. but it wasn't there. no star to shine. it was a rainy day. i felt lost. lost in the memory we built together. what had happened? when did this happened? i have no clue. im lost now. there's no light to guide me. nothing to keep me safe and warm anymore. the star has left. leaving only darkness outside and inside. what should i do? what should i say? if and only if you understand this darkness will lead me to some sort of stairs thats only bring me to the pitch black. lets shut down everything. lets use your ability to shut down yourself. maybe , maybe this is not the end

Puncak and basketball

assalammualaikum everyone..

well helloo.wadap wadap. era in the house. again its been a while. today i feel like writing something. feeling like a diva. *budget sangat. :P puii
hoho well as u all know i am a graphic design student,semester 3. well UiTM decided to move us earlier than we should. so we are now in Puncak Alam.

about puncak alam, all i can say is its a lovely place, a good place for student. no distraction no cinema no entertainment. but when it comes to food it is quite hard for me to adapt. its because i love food so much.i love to eat many kind of food.when i was in shah alam there's plenty of restaurant and fast food you can choose from. but now its all gone. but im not that depressed. no matter what happened i have to adapt this situation after all there's 1 and a half years to go (nak tak nak kena la kan). hoho.  furthermore the food here is cheap.i can save my money and find the right day and spend all the money on my favorite food :P hewhew.

hmm suddenly i feel sleepy, ok lets go to the main point. haha when there's no entertainment what's left is basketball court. i have improved my skill a lot since my first time playing basketball in shah alam. and i have my gang with me. which is my roommate shima. shima is my classmate and my roommate. we have a lot in common. luckily she love sports like i do. so i have many girlfriends now Jenny the kelam kabut, Shima the gangster (pendengar cerita imaginasi saya), Anis the diva with the red terompah , Iqa the kad kahwin designer and others. i love them. i dont have many girlfriends actually in my past. but now things change Alhamdulillah i know how to be friend with them :)

not to forget my cutie pie is also here with me. although he is quite lazy and very hard to wake up in the morning but i still love him no matter what. hehe. :)  he is getting buncit no. hehe kidding. we played basketball together. he is my coach and my lover. can you beat that? HAHAHA *evil laugh

ok its late and i have class tomorrow . so goodnite ya'all as if there's people who read my blog.
i love you aiman firdaus. muah muah. bye! Wsalam

bro ken

to many broken things.cannot be fix. it will fall sooner or later.

loveloveland

i've lost in our love fantasy. its a great thing to feel. but in the end we have to snap back to reality. and realize all this may have grown you up or knock you down. it depends on yourself actually. we cant blame others. we have the right to think,  to feel, and to choose.

KECTHup!

Assalamualaikum,

its been a while now since my last writing. i have no clue on what to write. although there's many things that i want to share here. so i guess lets just start about my life in University.

i am now still in uitm shah alam.but in a different course. the course that im taking right now is Graphic design. kinda disappointed when entering this course because i have a lot to catch up. we were left far far behind. we as in me and aiman . and i started entering the class after 3 weeks of study. such a mess. anyway lets just say that im not in a good condition this semester. catching up is harder that i thought. my feelings gets all mix up. thinking on quitting study. but naah for sure my parents wont allow me. economy crisis they would say. its hard to find job nowadays. you should be thankful to have the chance to further your study.many unfortunate people would want to be like you. ok then era you are now going to build up your confident and try to push all the bad things behind and change your bad attitude and turn it into something good! haha its too long and too complicated.

new chapter of my life. i should try new things.new new new. that should be good for me.

like we used to be

transformer

its been quite a while now i didnt write anthing. i guess i should start now and start fresh. before this i used this blog to express my sadness, things that had happened between you and me. but we're 21 now. and we have a lot of things to think beside our love desire. i guess love have make me think deep. deeper than i used to think. its about being mature and independent. i'll pray to Allah every single day.. hoping that HE give us taufik & hidayah and iman. Of all the challenges that we're having im hoping that Allah will bestow us patience and mercy.  what ive learn is that there's a limit in love. i've gone through your tumblr just now. and i realise there were hints about you getting tired of us. but i guess i never give up. until recently you realise that you have wasted your teenage life with crappy love. its ok aiman. i guess this is your time.. and i should respect that.. All guys i mean all mens are like that.. they're not ready for commitment. i guess i should think that way too..since there's many things to do in life.. aiman i know i've done so many bad things towards you. i've hurt your feeling.i have broke your trust.. and etc. im sorry for that. i really am sorry. and i can assure you i am changing to be better me and better muslimah.but i guess thats not enough rite sayang.. Ya Allah.. help me. i dont know how to explain what im feeling right now. im confused. but i know you always be there for me Allah.. and im glad that you help me to think wise. and not to feel grieved for losing u aiman. i love you.. just one last thing , after this if you ever feel angry please go and take a wuduk. insyaallah Allah will calm you down. i trust you aiman and i believe you..there's a good side of you. you just have to believe it. i know you can aiman. my love for you will never end. as i always pray for you to be my khalifah.. the husband and the father of our children. amin. insyaallah. and i never regret having you being part of my life over these years.


i love you AIMAN FIRDAUS and always will..