decision

i shouldn't have let myself drown into this world of lie. i shouldn't have open the door that leads me to this road thats hard for me to walk. and i don't know how to express this feeling. i'm confused.some might say i'm blurred out. this sense is getting weaker day by day.i don't want to believe on something that is not been proof yet. do i have to feel it? no, i don't want to! what if its not true? then ill wait.........