low self-confident . that's is what i'm struggling with now. i have this fear , this fucking feeling inside of me that i've been avoiding. i just can't stand it. it's getting worst than ever. past couple of weeks when i did my presentation in front of lecturer and my friends. i didn't feel anything at first. but all of a sudden this weird feeling came crawling into my mind. and i don't know whether my heart beat slowly or faster than normal as it always do. then i feel like i lose my consciousness for a short time because of a temporarily insufficient supply of oxygen into my brain. i can't see clearly.my eye sight is getting blur. i've tried to fight that fear but failed to do it until now. still suffer with this fucking annoying symptom. i know you will think this is stupid.i'd try not to believe.but sometimes it kills me for not knowing what is happening to me. i just hope you and me understand what is happening to me right now. and figure this out.
ps: i'm lack of everything. easily give up and pemalas.that's my fucking problem.pemalas. i don't know why.i have no effort in doing something.i do have interest in something but i have no effort on trying my best to learn it by myself.this is why when i do something then i stop doing it. it is because i feel like i'm so stupid. i'm surrounded by creative people. i feel stupider than ever. with people kept on yelling and telling me that i'm stupid. push me harder to not believing in myself. what am i supposed to do. Ya Allah please help me.please guide me.. let me be strong..
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