you

today you've realize something about yourself. which is what you'd always say to yourself. yet, today is different.today are the things that happened from the start,from the day you were born. since that day many things happened many weird things happened towards you. yet you still can't figure it out. you're so confused with yourself. you can't sleep.you're tired..what should you do? what should you do?

feel

i feel like stabbing myself with a knife. oh man! i hate this feeling. the feeling like one of those japanese cartoon where their soul flew out from their body but not fully.just hanging above their head. who am i to you exactly? i still wonder.. why do you need to do those thing?smoking?what do you want for your life actually?do you still need me?or am i just your part time lover? someone who give you love whenever you feel like having?
aiman i'm tired..please.i'm tired...can you help me please? sakit hati dan dada..

you

you've changed my dear.. i don't know whether i'm being paranoid or something but yes you've changed.i want the old you.. the one who tell me stories.. i don't mind if the story is boring. i just want to listen.. i want to hear about you..to remember things.. i'm scared.what if one day i forget everything.i don't want to shut myself down. cuz i have you now. but if you don't need me please tell me now so that i can proceed ...........




its 3.18a.m still can't sleep.. 30oct2011

can i tell you - 4

can i tell you i can't sleep every night thinking bout you and not having the chance to speak or to look at your face?

can i tell you - 3

can i tell you that i've waited for the time to turn 7 p.m something..cuz i know that's the time you finished working. and i'll get all excited waiting for your text or waiting to call you.

can i tell you - 2

can i tell you that i often look at the clock and wonder what you were doing that time.

can i tell you - 1st

can i tell you that i purposely wear a pajamas tonight so that you can tell me that i look cute in it. (cuz i thought  we're goin to skype)