in the end

so i guess this is it.. the very end of everything. never thought this will happened..



i have nothing to say.

http://youtu.be/ERlf_9BW4iA

fuck english i know im not that good.never been in UK for 3 years. fuckbye

burfabor

enough already.i'm tired telling you things.. you kept on doing the same thing over and over again. i know sometime you  didn't meant to.but the thing is i have heart. i called you so many times last night but you never even bother to call me this morning to say anything a least a word.i haven't heard from you at all until
this evening i called you.but you acted like nothing.don't ask me why.ask yourself.  

what have i done

what have you done era?you make a very big mistake in your life..you should have fight back and don't give in..and now look what happened.look at yourself.you can't do anything anymore.shit man.. fucking hate thinking.why you always think and regret.can't speak for yourself.this is ridiculous.

you

today you've realize something about yourself. which is what you'd always say to yourself. yet, today is different.today are the things that happened from the start,from the day you were born. since that day many things happened many weird things happened towards you. yet you still can't figure it out. you're so confused with yourself. you can't sleep.you're tired..what should you do? what should you do?

feel

i feel like stabbing myself with a knife. oh man! i hate this feeling. the feeling like one of those japanese cartoon where their soul flew out from their body but not fully.just hanging above their head. who am i to you exactly? i still wonder.. why do you need to do those thing?smoking?what do you want for your life actually?do you still need me?or am i just your part time lover? someone who give you love whenever you feel like having?
aiman i'm tired..please.i'm tired...can you help me please? sakit hati dan dada..

you

you've changed my dear.. i don't know whether i'm being paranoid or something but yes you've changed.i want the old you.. the one who tell me stories.. i don't mind if the story is boring. i just want to listen.. i want to hear about you..to remember things.. i'm scared.what if one day i forget everything.i don't want to shut myself down. cuz i have you now. but if you don't need me please tell me now so that i can proceed ...........




its 3.18a.m still can't sleep.. 30oct2011