bitter heart

sorry i'm not being honest to you although you asked me quite a lot. it just that i don't have the guts to tell you this. i'm scared. you make me scared.. and this time for real. shit this heart is in pain right now. i don't know whether i can cope with this feeling.. i don't think you need me anymore. and i know u didn't realize that.maybe one day u will... just take your time and think about it ok? and today i felt like an idiot .. total imbecile!hahaha... crap. luruh nya hati bila kena fake a smile.hahaha.

its been a while now since i thought i can be invisible at certain time and places. and now that feeling occurs again, and this time is different, this time is way cooler, this time is colder... haha i don't know what to say. i guess that thought will never wrong...

better

now i realize its better when you expect less and even better if you don't expect anything.because when you wait for something to happen it is quite disappointing if that thing didn't happen or turn out the other way..

note to yourself : less is good.

fat

i hate you big fat liar! you make me think about you every night and day. is this an addiction? you're so mean and cool with the lie.. and i'm still addicted to you. thank you. so i guess you just afraid to tell that this is the end. its ok let me figure that out. oh yah this is the end.hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

bye...................

decision

i shouldn't have let myself drown into this world of lie. i shouldn't have open the door that leads me to this road thats hard for me to walk. and i don't know how to express this feeling. i'm confused.some might say i'm blurred out. this sense is getting weaker day by day.i don't want to believe on something that is not been proof yet. do i have to feel it? no, i don't want to! what if its not true? then ill wait.........

money

im being considerate as possible.. and this what happened, over 3 semester i have to spend my money and most of it not for myself... the money flow just like running water. what i get is " sampai hati era biar ... kebulur tak makan?" "habis era nak biar ... berlapar la? " wow..after all this while this is what i get.cool, this is just great.please let me cry. shit...

function

this six sense of mine can't function very well lately. is it because i'm not a mind reader?

its all about her

this is the story about her.her live in a world that her cant even decide what her want,cause her's tied up by everything. maybe its her choice or maybe not, i think her don't get the chance so say a word about what her really want for her life (i think). cryptic is her verb. always in obscure. that is her. her can be a good actress and at the same time a terrible liar. not a multitasking kinda person. her kept on thinking when will good things come to her.but her just can think,cause that good things seems so far from her.. worst come to worst her have to accept it.although her try her hard to solve her problem. her have to please everyone. 

i'm so glad i'm not her.  

yr,n!