should or shouldn't ?

i dont mind to be alone if i get the chance to buy mp3 player or anything that can distract me from surrounding . hahaha... i don't mind at all it just that one little tiny thing will bother me a lot if i'm there. seeing someone having fun n being nice with everyone. you can help it that is just you. so should i go or shouldn't i? but its still the same,whether i'm going or not the same feeling will occur. and yah you don't have to worry ill understand. thanks for today.fakeass.